Self-love

Lately I feel like I have been going through a few changes. The way I'm thinking is changing, the way I'm communicating is changing, the way I see others is changing, the way I view myself is changing. My life is changing. My interests are changing and developing. The communication piece was predicted by my astrologer, he said that by May of next year the way I communicate with others will be entirely different. This makes sense since I am learning to do therapy, and through this process learning much more about people, and being less inclined to judge them. I am learning how to talk to them. I am learning to be more gentle with them. People have so much on their plate, and life is hard. I feel like My spirituality has increased and my ability to connect with everything around me. 

This change is pretty awesome for me, but at the same time it's hard. It's so hard. I find that I will criticize and judge myself, and that it's easy to be impatient. I'm learning to really love and accept myself though, and through this process I find that I am really getting to know myself too. I mean I know myself, but I'm learning from a different perspective. Kind of like seeing things in 2d and then seeing them in 3d, I previously saw myself in 2d. I am slowly learning how to see myself in 3d, and it feels so much better. I'm pretty happy with how I'm growing, and I hope I have the energy to continue onward and finish school! Anyway, I found this poem, and I just absolutely loved it. I hope you enjoy it too!

Here is a picture of a sunflower, because they make me happy. And they grow in some pretty harsh conditions and unusual places, it seems. I found this one while I was on my little excursion of the Salt Lake.

As I Began to Love Myself – Self Love Poem by Charlie Chaplin

As I began to love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering
are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth.
Today, I know, this is “AUTHENTICITY”.

As I began to love myself I understood how much it can offend somebody
As I try to force my desires on this person, even though I knew the time
was not right and the person was not ready for it, and even though this
person was me. Today I call it “RESPECT”.

As I began to love myself I stopped craving for a different life,
and I could see that everything that surrounded me was inviting me to grow.
Today I call it “MATURITY”.

As I began to love myself I understood that at any circumstance,
I am in the right place at the right time, and everything happens
at the exactly right moment. So I could be calm.
Today I call it “SELF-CONFIDENCE”.

As I began to love myself I quit steeling my own time,
and I stopped designing huge projects for the future.
Today, I only do what brings me joy and happiness, things I love to do
and that make my heart cheer, and I do them in my own way and in
my own rhythm. Today I call it “SIMPLICITY”.

As I began to love myself I freed myself of anything that is no good for
my health – food, people, things, situations, and everything that drew
me down and away from myself. At first I called this attitude
a healthy egoism. Today I know it is “LOVE OF ONESELF”.

As I began to love myself I quit trying to always be right, and ever since
I was wrong less of the time. Today I discovered that is “MODESTY”.

As I began to love myself I refused to go on living in the past and worry
about the future. Now, I only live for the moment, where EVERYTHING
is happening. Today I live each day, day by day, and I call it “FULFILLMENT”.

As I began to love myself I recognized that my mind can disturb me
and it can make me sick. But As I connected it to my heart, my
mind became a valuable ally. Today I call this
connection “WISDOM OF THE HEART”.

We no longer need to fear arguments, confrontations or any kind of problems
with ourselves or others. Even stars collide, and out of their crashing
new worlds are born. Today I know THAT IS “LIFE”!